A Doctorate Journey

Ramadhan 1432H

2011-07-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

Baru sekarang terasa nk update BLOG. Dah bertahun xjenguk blog ni. Pejam celik pejam celik Ramdhan pun dah nk datang lagi. Rasa teruja sangat nk sambut RAMADHAN kali ni.

"Ya Allah, semoga aku diberi kesempatan untuk menemui Ramadhan kali ini dan Engkau berikanlah kekuatan kepadaku untuk melaksanakan kewajipanku kepadaMu dengan hati yang ikhlas."

Semoga kita semua tidak mensia-siakan peluang yang diberikanNya.

s.e.s.a.t oleh n.a.t.a.s.h.a

2010-04-10T08:18:00.000+08:00

8th apr 2010

morning:

meet Dr Chan and he brief me about what there are doing right now...ok no interview...i am lucky gurl :)

then told me about all important person that i shud noe that involve in his project and also his assistants...

afternoon:

meet my supervisor and i have to improve my rp..
make it as a thesis already..in 3 separate chapter...i guess maybe around 60 pgs...now only 20pgs and i have to submit this tuesday...huhuhuu

nite:

went to PTAR 4 to renew my books and funny incident happen...
i shud say that girl was making jokes with me...
she was...
her bf shud shame of what she had doing...
oh, dear...i know u dont hv a car licence...
me n tashi were talking n ngumpating bout her all the way home...
hhahahahahha
and to be rude, i laughed in front of her...
to show how b***h is her...huh
haish...kanak2 betulla budak tu...

9th apr 2010

morning:

meet Dr Chan again and he asked me to assists faizah....
do some stuff and we went to hakim sksn7 to hv our lunch...
menu: mee rojak + air asam boi = terangkat punyer...nyum~ nyum~

afternoon:

went to PTAR 2...
tashi was doing her works..her works was tough bcz of Dr Gurnam words...be strong tashi *hugs *hugs
i borrowed few books that related in my research...
we hv to go back at 4 bcz i hv an appointment with Dr Haslifah and after that i hv to meet my coor Dr Hamidah...
around 3.40 we went down...

this is the time went tashi wanted look for her co-sv room...
the reward of me accompanying her = travel around her new fac...
thats good...
we went upstairs and walk around confidentally to look for Dr Norhana room...
we walked around and walk and walk until tashi said,
"ni dah fac law balik, dah sesat la mashi...jom balik la"
so we went down n that was not a place that we ever went...
it is Fac of Law office lobby....hahahahaaa
and the tour end with joys in our face...
we need him (tashi's fren *wink*wink) be our tour guide...

thanx tashi for accompanying me past 2 days and thanx for ur accommodation :))

bila kami berdua ~ ~ ~

2010-04-03T05:52:00.001+08:00

F.r.i.d.a.y - 020410

Meeting suamiku batal hari ni..blk j cpt2 die ajak siap nk g Klang..

Klang

- bayar lump sum sume balance lorry n now, lorry tu jd hak milik suamiku..Tahniah abang !!

- jpe en man n amek sume dokumen penting..hopefully abang leh

tolong en man..

- g tengok2 keta idaman abang..hurm..okla..n sepanjang perjalanan abang puji2 lah kete idaman die..nk bodek lah tu..hehe

Sunway Pyramid = part yg paling best!!!

1) kami mmg da lame mengidam nk mkn kt hartz..rindu ny kt salad2 die..bak kate abang "Hantu S.A.L.A.D" ..hehehe..punyala bersungguh2 makan sbb da reserve perut dr thari..kami lumba2 mkn tgk sape lg hebat..hehehe..dialog abang "abang kn abang, mestila abang yg menang"

2) jalan2 then terjumpe small fun fair dlm tu..eh de bumper car ar...pe lagi kami pn bersungguh2 la men langgar2 sesama sendiri..series BEST giler!!! thanx abang :))

3) melawat kedai2 mainan [tempat feveret abang]..n kami ade satu aim baru..next month hopefully boleh beli...wiiieeeee

4) melawat JUSCO since skang kn tgh sale..hehehehheeee

SeRoNoK sangat !!!!!!!

thanx abang...

love u....mmmmmuuuuaaaahhhhhhhhh

z.u.r.i.a.t

2010-03-23T11:05:00.001+08:00

ZuRiaT adalah Anugerah & Amanah yg amat BESAR yg dikurniakan oleh ALLAH kepada hambaNya..
tapi ramai yg xsedar & xmenghargai pemberian itu..

anak yg ada dipersia2kn..

anak Biadap dgn Guru/Org tua = takpe, kecik lagi
anak Hisap Rokok = takpe, bkn hisap dadah
anak Melepak = takpe, diorg xmencuri
anak Bersosial Melampau = takpe, bknnye berzina

bila masyarakat mengadu, ramai ibu bapa yg melenting..
tidak mahu mengaku kesalahan anak2 bimbang terserlah kelemahan diri..

bagaimana nk membentuk generasi yg C-e-m-e-r-l-a-n-g andai rebungnya tidak dilentur...

risau sungguh hati ini mengenangkn bakal2 pemimpin akan datang ~ ~

lembut hati + baik hati ???

2010-03-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

smlm patutny test 1 utk my class tp adela sorg hamba Allah ni call hr isnin merayu2 tukar topic sbb susah...

me = lembut hati + baik hati = "ok nt saya tukar soalan tp sy kt luar sekarang, ptg or mlm br boleh buat soalan baru"...

sbnrny dlm ht marah la jugak...kan da bg tau topic kamis lps, apasal isnin br gtau topic susah, xcover lg, xblaja lg...huh

so,pn. massita yg sgt baik hati + lembut hati ubahlah soalan sikit dgn syarat test mesti SELASA 16th Mar, tiba2 tup tup pg selasa dpt call...

"pn. massita, saya ***** student pn., pn. tukar topic yer? sy dgn kwn2 da study topic yg pn bg kamis lps...boleh x pn bg soalan yg topic aritu?"

mase tu rase terbakar j...budak2 ni...uji keimanan betul...huhuhuhu

tp pn. massita kn baik hati + lembut hati = " ok nt sy buat soalan lain utk student yg xstudy lg"

tp memandangkn pn.massita pn byk kerja, " sy masukkn soalan yg sy penah bg dlm cls n ade soalan pasal bond, ok?"

tup2 thari student call "pn., kami dah konpius nk study ape, boleh x postpone TEST??"

hahahahhahaa....pn.massita = sgt lembut hati + sgt baik hati = "ok tp semua kne dtg ptg ni tau"

akhirnya petang SELASA itu pn.massita bg POP QUIZ 10 soalan semua dr SOA...hahahaha

t.u.t.o.r

2010-02-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

arini da 3x g campus beringin utk jd tutor EPL 180..

me? i think im the smallest in that class..

haha

there are bigger n taller than me..

but they have to call me Pn Massita-->so im look older than them..

if they call me C-i-K, for sure im look so so young~~

eventhough im still young, i have to act like im in middle age, baru la boleh respect..hihihi

mekap sikit npk2 ala2 aish, br la npk mature :))

Ph.D #1

2010-01-31T21:28:00.000+08:00

today = end of January 2010...
progress = still bergelumang dgn JouRNaL utk menyiapkn PROPOSAL...
motivation = sgt teruja dgn SPiRiT suami tercinta = beliau sgt byk idea...
mode = still ade rase malas [hate this mode]...huh

have to change my mind set!!!

have to work hard!!!

have to communicate with others!!!

have to be open minded!!!

think out of the box!!!

i can do it!!!

Welcome to the Year of "Metal Tiger" !!!

2010-01-24T19:14:00.000+08:00

Aummmmmmmmmm !!!!!

maka genaplah umur ku 24 thn this year...

thn H-A-R-I-M-A-U akn dtg lg semasa umur ku 36 [ if umo pjg la ]...

me n my hubby were born in tahun H-A-R-I-M-A-U...semangat harimau sgt membara dlm hati kami...

kami mulakan tahun ni dgn status sbg postgrad student = semangat berkobar2...

byk perancangan utk thn ni...

for those yg read my blog, dont judge us by this...

it is not tahayul or kurafat to believe in this but it is just as our self motivation :)

in chinese calender, there are 12 animals that give symbolic in selected years...

there are:

for M.e.t.a.l T.I.G.E.R,

Hot passion meets cold steel with the arrival of the year of the Metal Tiger. This combined sign signifies both the energy to begin activity and the determination to follow it through to the end. Forget about last year's slow plodding. Events set in motion now will pick up speed and continue until either the objective is attained or the whole endeavor crashes and burns.

Bold, cold Metal rules in contrast to last year's pragmatic, calculating Earth. This difference will be all the more dramatic as 2010 is a dynamic, Yang year. Metal's Yang aspect is extremely aggressive and does not tolerate opposition.

Unfortunately Metal has a destructive relationship with the Tiger's fixed element, Wood. In fact this is the fifth in a run of six years governed by an unlucky conflict of elements. This should come as no surprise given the recent history of US and world financial markets, massive numbers of foreclosures in the housing sector, and the terrible tragedy that is Iraq today.

The combination of Metal and Tiger is not, however, a totally negative one. Together they represent the kind of force necessary to accomplish the most difficult tasks. The impossible just might be possible during this exciting time.

Things that have needed to get done but were not due to some blockage will be done or at least see significant progress being made. On the other hand, some that probably should never even have been attempted will also go to completion. This is because the Metal Tiger is associated with a lemming mentality. The Norwegian story goes that, once a group of them starts moving across the fields, they will charge ahead and unthinkingly run straight off a cliff to their doom.

The point is now is the time to attack the most difficult issues you face. You have one of your best chances of achieving a breakthrough. On the other hand, if you still run into stiff opposition, you would do well to consider postponing your attempt to another time. You see, the same force that propels you forward is also with those opposing your efforts. Thinkers can prosper, but lemmings could experience serious setbacks.

Since this is a Metal year, those people born in an Earth one will generally fare better than others of their animal sign, while those born in a Wood one are likely to do worse. It's also slightly negative for those born in a Fire year and mildly positive for Water sign people. Finally, those born in a Metal year will be in their element and do well if their animal sign is compatible with the Tiger but could run into lots of confrontations if not.

The only thing we can say for sure is the year 2010 will be a tumultuous one. This is true for individuals, societies and the human race in general. It's perhaps a better time for knocking down walls than building them. People who thirst for adventure and can reign in their emotions could experience a thrilling and rewarding year. Those who seek peace and harmony might find themselves running for cover more than a few times.

"28 DaYs"

2010-01-23T08:47:00.000+08:00

It has been 28 days since I registered as Ph.D student. Yet I still don’t get my research mode. I hate my current mode. I want to complete my research at most 3 years from now, but is it possible??

By hook or by crook I have to.

Task 1: Find a title for my research = completed

Task 2: Write a research proposal = in progress

Task 3: Find at least 50 journals for Jan [to achieve at least 1,000 journals within 3 yrs] = currently ±10 journals only

Arghhhhh….

There are sooooo many things to do…

my blog

2010-01-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

huh...
i hv to commit that to maintain a blog is not an easy task...
my blog was sooo not up-to-date...

i hope i can maintain my blog as frequent as i can...

1st Anniversary

2009-12-05T01:54:00.001+08:00

hurm...rase cam kjp j masa berjalan...
it is almost one year im married to a guy or i shud say a MACHO guy who loves me so much...
owh...i love him so much....

now im counting day by day...
owh...rase berdebar cam nk tgu hari nikah plak...hihihihi

i really love my life right now...
n since our anniversary will be on 1st Muharam, i hv few azam...

nk mempunyai AKHLAK yg lebih baik dr sekarang
nk BLAJAR rajin2 so that i can finish my PhD at most 3 yrs from now
berganding bahu ngn HALIM to catch up with me n get the PhD scroll together
also hopefully our BIZ will run as we hope or better than that
hopefully dpt BABY next yr
wanna save some MONEY n travel for holiday

there are lot more things that i wanna list s my wish...
but this is for now...hopefully i can achieved all my dreams ~~~ aminnnn

alhamdulillah

2009-11-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

terima kasih Allah...

alhamdulillah...
now tgu registeration day j...
tp rase cuak la pulak...
xpe halim ade...
tashi pn ade...
dr haslifah ade, pn azizah n sume pn ade...
i must FOCUS...

NuR KaSiH

2009-11-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

aiyoyo...

ini cerita kasi demam sama rakyat malaysia...

hari ini, kasi nangis lg...

aduhai...

apa macam itu ADAM punya nasib...

itu SARAH, byk psycho punya org...

kasik rumah tangga org kacau bilau...

nasihat bapa mentua ku,

"sape yg da kawin xpatut percaya terus ckp org luar...percaya pasangan masing2...tanya...bincang elok2..."

lps bincang...sama2 sepakat...rumah tangga aman harmoni...

aman damai...

M.A.S.S.I.T.A love H.A.L.I.M

2009-11-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you can adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you can adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

Love was made for me and you

My SWeeT MemORieS [UiTM - part 1]

2009-11-11T16:03:00.000+08:00

memories = sure have

bad memories = dun want to remember

sweet memories = always in my heart ♥

Dinner Kesatria Part 1

one big happy famili...
all of us are so happy sitting at the back table coz we [actuary-to-be] always know the strategies...
i bet that we were enjoying every moment at the dinner...
no one listens to the speech...
no one bother to watch any performance...
no one cares what other classes did...
no need to rush with other to get the foods because our table was the nearest to the foods...yummy...

we only care:
talking to each others...
making funny jokes...
eat a lot...

i wonder when we can attend such dinner again...huhhh

to be continue...

L-I-F-E

2009-11-08T19:17:00.000+08:00

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here,

we should smile and be grateful.

P.E.L.A.N.G.I Y.A.N.G I.N.D.A.H

2009-11-08T06:12:00.000+08:00

Di kala hujan turun
Kita resah gelisah
Mencari-cari ke mana hilangnya matahari
Namun kita lupa
Munculnya pelangi yang indah

"MY WEDDING"

2009-11-07T04:15:00.000+08:00

I was engaged to HALIM KHALID on 9th Feb 2008 and alhamdulillah kami selamat diijab kabulkn on 1st Muharram 1430H bersamaan 29th Dec 2008...

Well, nk story sikit detik2 my big day...(ala-ala cam my engagement ny post la)

We (fstep) had our final exam on 22nd and 23rd dec if im not mistaken. Im so relief because they had rescheduled the exam from 30th dec and bring it fwd. I went home on Friday’s noon for my final preparation.

Everybody was very busy doing their own task. My eldest brother gave my other siblings their specific tasks. Each of them has their own responsibilities on my big day. This is to make sure the wedding run smoothly. A million thanx to my brothers and sisters for their help. Not to forget my beloved abah n mak for their full support.

Halim and his family arrived around 9.30am and the aqad nikah was started at 10am. I was so nervous when abah shake halim’s hand. Alhamdulillah with sekali lafaz kami sah as husband and wife. But that’s not the end of the function.

I have to read the sakinah thing and I cant hold my tears because I touch about the responsibilities that held by my parents now changed to halim’s responsibilities. It was the saddest moment for my big day.

Then acara sanding2 la kan. Sonok sgt sbb rmi kawan2 yg dtg meraikan majlis kami. Sgt terharu.

Hopefully ikatan yg terjalin akan kekal bahagia dan harmoni sehingga ke akhir hayat. Amennnn….

BSc.(Hons.)(Actuarial Science)

2009-11-07T03:38:00.000+08:00

mak aih...name sikit ny scientific...nk mudah kami menggelarny "CS222 YG ROCK" ...yeah...

2 days ago, when i was redecorate my study room, suddenly i found our "The ALMANAC"...tetibe j er jd rindu...rase cam xpecaya lak da tinggalkn CS222...byk sgt kenangan...

[matrix + diploma = CS222 yg ROCK!!!]

raseny nak bg one word yg mengingatkn aku bg setiap CS222 member...ni from my view k...jgn marah...juz to remind me our sweet memories...

start with my husband la yer...hehehhe

halim = biz
tashi = tal
soe = bjc
are = motor (kenangan me ngn achik kt kemelah)
lizo = komander
farawa = uno
firra = pink
nebby = 155
mojo = joni
shazzy = tinggi
yuni = kasut
shada = rambut
mcsha = makan
mcsue = nihongo
nomi = jari-jemari
hasya = lembut
tika = bas
nad = spec
shairah = rajin
fhad = pemalu
mcja = diam
sarah = eyeliner
nas = boboy
jep = teratai
amad = fasi
amir = helmet
ashi = janggut
syafiq = laser
syahmi = bbq
apit = kedahan

raseny da cukup ni kot...bile yer nk bercuti same2 lg...bile lalu banglow yg kite sewa kt PD tuh, teringat sweet memories CS222...

rindu bangat sihhhh....

m.y l.i.f.e

2009-11-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

im sooo happy with my life right now...
ive completed my degree a half and year ago, ive completed my fstep prog (*sigh*), im married to someone that love me [of course i love him too], and right now im waiting for my postgrad application status...

let me story one by one, part by part...

to be continue =P

IM BACK !!!!

2009-08-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

fuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........ish byk betul habuk kt blog nih...
it has been almost a year i write nothin on this blog...
thanx to tashi for encouraging me to write again...

IM GETTING MARRIED....

2008-12-10T17:17:00.001+08:00

19 days left before my big day...

ENGLISH MID TERM TEST

2008-11-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

hoohohohohoho....

exam nih sgt ssh...
sgt2 susah...

huhuhuhuhuhuuhuhuh

hari-hari ku....

2008-11-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

.Z.I.R.C.O.N.

2008-10-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

ZIRCON (a name of a diamond),

When I was offered to join FSTEP, I wondered how they people in there will be. I was expected that all of them must be intelligent, proactive, up-to-date, caliber, full of commitment, and etc. (and now I know…they are just like what I was expected). I was very excited to join the program (I’m a very new fresh graduates which just finish my course in mid May and get an offer early June…at that time I think I was blessed and yes I am…)

Before I start my class session, we were exposed to overview for the entire 4 stream. It is barely hard for me to get to know others because I’m a very shy person (am I?). After 2 weeks of overview weeks, we went into our appointed group. I’m in ZIRCON.

When the session of ice breaking took place, I realized that they are so talented person and I felt a bit down. But when I think positively, I know that I should grab this opportunity and try to share experiences and knowledges with them as much as possible. (And also I’m among those youngest ages in the class and even in FSTEP…I feel soooo young…hihihi)

For the first rotation, I was in Conventional Banking. The elder’s was held by Razif, Ikhwan, Kak Mas, Leen and Adlin. The class was fully organized and up-to-date under their concern.

Now I’m in Insurance and Takaful stream (2nd rotation and it is my favorite stream actually) and up to this point, I know better my class members.

Razif is quite quiet person but he can throw a very intelligent question when he opens his mouth (he also got the most macho voice in Zircon-please don’t be soooo excited because he already have someone special…no chance for others k).

While Helmi is much much quieter than Razif. He is the president for Insurance and Takaful and we purposely chose him because we want him to be proactive and he proved us that he can do that.
Ridzwan is the only one who had Degree in Politics. He is good in talk. I’m not surprised because he has lot of knowledges. The tip is, read newspaper everyday every part.

The only married person in the class is Leen. She had working experiences and she shared a lot of her working experiences with us.

Jenny is the only foreign graduates and she graduated from Curtin University, Perth. She also got working experiences and from my first impression she is a very serious person. But as time goes by I learnt that she is quite funny lady (of course I will notice when she made jokes, because she is sitting next to me…and she always made unbelievable jokes to me… ).

Liza also seems like a very serious person. At first I was very afraid of her and some more she is older than me, I can’t easily approach her. But just like Jenny, she is a very nice person. (She is sitting next to Jenny…)

Ikhwan came from Terengganu and had Degree in Finance. He always sleepy in the class but till now I wonder, how he can throw a question when he didn’t listen to the lecture?

Derek is the only Chinese guy in the class. His face shows seriousness but he is not. I was surprised when he first time made jokes to me. He also got same sleeping curse just like Ikhwan but also surprisingly he can answer questions given by the speaker. (maybe I should act like I’m sleeping but actually I was listening to the lecture…so I can impressed others…hehehe)

Ira, Kak Siti, Zakiyah and Dayah graduated from USIM and they sat next to each other in the class. Ira from K Kinabalu and she is a very funny girl. Kak Siti didn’t talk too much but she also know how to made jokes (now I wonder how the serious people out there can made really funny jokes). Zakiyah have a very soft voice. Her voice is soooo motherly. She can be a very patient mother (how I wish to be like her)…while Dayah is more childish. She made jokes without her intentions. We can just laugh when she started to talk. I just cannot stand when she started to open her mouth (hahahha…).

Ima also came from Terengganu and she is the only one in my class who graduated from UM. Quite shy girl but she loves went shopping with Adlin. Adlin graduated from UPM and hold Degree in Accounting. She loves to read motivational books. Dila is sitting next to Adlin and three of them love to take pictures of them. (Sometimes I did join them…hehehe)

The front row consists of Wani, Aishah, Ina, Kak Mas and Zua. They are the front liner of Zircon’s group. They are those who can count on to put their full concentration during the class.

BLoG DA BERKULAT...huhuhu

2008-10-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

hohohoho

when was the last time i did wrote something in this blog???
hmmm...
seems like my blog da berkulat...
hehehe

i want to active back (my new aim-if i can)...

we were supposed to write a blog for our participation in FSTEP...
but me, im soooooo lazy....

even my blog i didnt touch how i would write something great to give to FSTEP>>>

but, suprisingly i did write something for FSTEP blog...

hehehehe

huhuhu...

2008-08-29T21:19:00.000+08:00

ive so many thing to share in this blog but not much time to do so...
huhuhu
i will write sumthing when i do really have some free time...

MISS HIM

2008-07-15T08:32:00.000+08:00

im so in angau right now...
huhuhu

i miss halim khalid soooo much...

FSTEP INDUCTION DAY

2008-06-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

27th june 08

we were required to register at dataran kewangan darul takaful n submit all the document needed...
my turn was actually from 2.30pm - 4pm...
but since it is jumaat, i went early cz im afraid the pakcik komuter driver will stop their operation during the sembahyang jumaat...
but im soooo naive...
of course they wont stop the operation cz not only malay can drive (do they drive?) the komuter, but also other uncle chong or uncle maniam can drive it too...
n moreover, they r a lot og non-muslims travel using the komuter at that time...

arrived the office nearly 1 o'clock where mcsha jz finished her registration...
but im soooo lucky...
they proceed my registration an at nearly 2 ive finished my registration (which make me more glad was im the last person register b4 they stop and start continue back at 230 pm)...

ive finished my registration at 2 o'clock which was very unexpected...
soooo many time left compared to predicted time...
so, i decided to meet halim...
i went to shah alam and dated with halim...

28th june 08

my 1st day of induction day...

this is sooo make me feel like kanak2, with my physical figure seems like im at high school level (sometimes people see me as primary schooler), we were required to wear sport attire...
i jz cant imagine, from my bro's house i drove till salak selatan's komuter - kl sentral then from kl sentral i took putra lrt to pasar seni, and walked bout 10 minutes till the office...
wearing the sport attire on weekends, what would people think?
huh (=....=)

well...the day ends with not much physical activity...

29th june 08

the 2nd day of induction day

we were divided into 3 group where all of us consists of 196 participants...
im in group 1 lead by ceo lim (the group named SURVIVAL BANK - remind me of survival models..hehehe)...
we were playing mystery maze and spiderweb...
all of us r soooo xcited...
but when the time of spiderweb, each of us will get an attention from all the team member...
we were required to cross a distance by gone through the spiderweb...
only 2 of the guy passed the game...
n me, im almost there (1 more step), but...
my leg touched the tali...
(6...6)
huhuhu...
but after all, my group managed to get the highest profit...
thanx a lot ceo lim...
the day was more enjoyable...

but tomorow (monday),
we'll start the routine of being an employee...

DRAMA QUEEN

2008-06-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

When the sun is setting at the end of the day
And the city fills with shades of grey
In between the streetlight and the moonlit snow
There's a place I go
Where I do my show

I'm your drama queen tonight
All my troubles are out of sight
When the lights are on
I will be your shining star
I'm your drama queen tonight
Everything's gonna be alright
When I get on the stage tonight

It's a space in time where every dream comes true
And tomorrow's sorrows just won't do
In between reality and fantasy
I will make you see
If you just believe

I'm your drama queen tonight
All my troubles are out of sight
When the lights are on
I will be your shining star
I'm your drama queen tonight
Everything's gonna be alright
When I get on the stage tonight

No more use pretending
No more reason to run and hide
Let's make all our dreams come true tonight

I'm you drama queen tonight
All my troubles are out of sight
When the lights are far
I will be your shining star
I'm your drama queen tonight
Everything's gonna be alright
When I get on the stage tonight
Oh... 'cause I'm your drama queen tonight

* ICE CREAM PERSONALITY??? *

2008-06-15T07:51:00.000+08:00

Your Ice Cream Personality:

You are an incredibly modest person. You don't feel comfortable bragging about yourself... or even receiving complements.

You have a wild reputation, but you're not as wild as you seem. You take risks, but only measured risks.

You are a somewhat open minded person, but deep down you're fairly conservative. You don't like trying new things very much. And if you do find something new you like, you stick with it.

You are a natural multitasker. You feel alive when you're doing more than one thing at a time.

You are a serious and contemplative person. You definitely do your own thing in life

KUNGFU PANDA

2008-06-13T08:26:00.000+08:00

this is the 2nd time i went to watch a movie early in the morning (start at 11am)...
n we watched KUNGFU PANDA...yeay

the 1st movie i watched early in the morning entitled VENOM...
i watched it with tashi on friday b4 12 pm n including me n tashi there r only 5 people sitting in the cinema room number 7 at bukit raja...
we didnt expect that the movie would be scary/horror movie (according to tashi, me the only one in the cinema who scream too much - i thinked others jz act cool as they r all guys)

the 2nd movie is KUNGFU PANDA...
this movie was sooo damn great!!!

something that i wont forget bout this movie is:

"yesterday is a HISTORY,
tommorow is a MYSTERY,

today is a gift, thats why we called in PRESENT "

AT LAST

2008-06-08T01:33:00.001+08:00

AT LAST i hv something to prepare for...
yahhhooo!!!!

MY 1st HOUSE

2008-06-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

since halim still hv another one semester to go to complete his degree, n as a preparation for us after get married, we had decided to rent a house (me-cant make any loan yet, no money k, i cant buy house, n added with halim's time diagram which he had his own aim, so we rent the house)...

act, halim will be the one who paid the rental...(im not working yet k...it is not that im taking for granted)

right now we are preapring to set up our 1st house...
im soooo excited...
eventhough i still at my hometown, i tried everything to help him in order to set up our house...

MY 1st JOB

2008-06-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah i got an offer from FSTEP...
the training will be about 1 year (july 08-june 09)...

the training consist of 2 types:

1)classroom training - it is compulsory to attend all the class that will be held during the training (more strict than my previous uni)
2)internship - they will assign me n others to any company (bank & ins. co.) that participate in this prog

each type of training will be approximately 6 months...(one semester including semester break...if im still in uni world)

im so excited to participate in this programme...
ive prepared few things that i should...

the programme will start this comin 27th june...
27th june-briefing day
28 & 29th june-orientation day (im so nervous when know bout this...huhuhu)

im so happy (praised to Allah that gv me opportunity for this job)...

PREPARATION FOR NEXT STAGE

2008-05-28T14:31:00.000+08:00

there r few things that shud b prepared right now...
huhuhu...
but im so excited for those things that shud be prepared...

things to be prepared:

1)work
=ive attended 2 iview:

(i) EON Bank
-i forgot to gv them the form that they ask me to ans. (so many weird ques, so i copied from yuni (thanx yuni)), where of cz i wont be chosen to work there
-obviously i didnt get the job cz they didnt call me till now...huh
-but thanx to halim for sending me there...hihihi

(ii) FSTEP
-i changed the date cz ive got pyjamas party the nite b4 (cs 222's girls-playing card all the nite at mcsha's room which i never forget..hihihi)
-when i called to change the date, the human resource man (forgot his name) gv me bad impression, but its ok...i shud gv a try at least...
-so i went there alone (it is suprising, i cant believe myself that i go there all alone)
-but it seems that the meaning of dekat gv by mcsha is quite far for me ( act i lost...huh)
-im walking from the putra station to the takaful bla bla (forgot the name), n to make things getting worst i lost the way,i reach there with my body heavily sweating undoubtly...huhu
-i wont go 4 any iview by myself again...never...huh
-but alhamdulillah the iview goin as good as it can b...
-im looking forward to be selected for this programme (im still waiting for the official letter-this make me feel really nervous)

2) further my study

where to start?
mmm... (*.*)
im planning to futher my studies this comin dec/jan intake...
but it depends on my job n my next plan...

3)getting married

this is the most excited part after all...
hahaha
but i dont know what to be prepared right now...
cant tempah my baju nikah yet cz manela tau a month b4 my wedding i can get slimmer ke...hihi
cant tempah pelamin, baju sanding, etc cz date x confirm lg...
cant buat brg hantaran cz we didnt buy those things yet...

as a conclusion, i still do nothin right now...
well nothin to can be prepared right now (-.-)
what i can do is look after my parents and my nephew n niece...

B.L.E.A.C.H

2008-05-27T03:05:00.000+08:00

hohoho...
i learnt bout what is bleach all about from my ex rumate, D2317, malyn...
we watch bleach during the the study week...(my habit, i will watch a series of drama during the study week)
it is about one year ago...
huhuuhu
the addicted of bleach stop after my last paper...

but now, im looking 4 sumthing to watch...
and suddenly my mind taught of bleach...
thank Allah halim's frens wana download the series 4 me...hihi

actuarially, rite now im waiting downloading bleach 170...
huhuhu
now is already 3.12am, 27th may...
huhuhu

KASEH SAYANG

2008-05-26T19:27:00.000+08:00

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih & sayang secara am. Dialog di antara pelajar & guru tersebut berbunyi begini:

Pelajar : Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang?.Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan?

Cikgu : Oh,awak nak tahu ke?.Emmm...baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh.Ikut je ye...mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.

Pelajar : Baiklah...apa yang saya harus buat?

Cikgu : Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas sekarang juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput di situ dan sambil memandang rumput di depan kamu, pilih mana yang PALING cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang PALING cantik yang berada di depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itu bawa balik ke kelas.

Pelajar : Ok.Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh.

Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut.

Cikgu : Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik?

Pelajar : Oh, tadi saya berjalan di atas rumput dan sambil memandang rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik. Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya tak jumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik.

Cikgu : Ya, itulah jawapannya.Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa dengan seseorang yang kita sayang,janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada di depan kita sebaik-baiknya. Janganlah kita menoleh ke belakang lagi kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak lagi berulang. Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang itu,kita boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut. Dan ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan paling baik pada MULAnya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi.

ACTUARIAL PRACTICE II

2008-05-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

8th may 2008

my last paper...
my feeling were bercampur baur as dis will be my last paper...
after 3 years ive been studying here...this is my last paper...
after general insurance turn me down, i really looking fwd 4 dis paper...

alhamdulillah dis is the best paper among all the three...

GENERAL INSURANCE II

2008-05-13T04:37:00.000+08:00

5TH MAY 2008

im targeting A+ for this subject (eventhough my carry mark seems that i wont easily achieved my aim--->i don care--->i BELIEVED cik haslifah wont turn me down--->i BELIEVED that the ques would b not so though..)
but,,,
gggrrrrrrrrrrrr.......... (*-*)
ok...
there r a lot of questions...( i really mean it..ooooo---> ('0'))
n there was sum1 that really annoying...
he grab my ans sheet jz after the time up...(jeezzz...)
if i can bite him, i would do so...
then i kerat2 him into 23...hahahahhahaha
then i wrap him with the ans sheet that he wanted so much...(amek2...mkn!!!)
jz if i can do that...
my paper...
him...
fortunately after the exam halim fetch me n bring me to klang (eventhough i had went there so many times, i jz don care...at least i can blow out all the bad things that had happen to sum1..aaaaaa)
the day was so terrible...
huh...
[..]

SURVIVAL MODELS

2008-05-10T02:12:00.001+08:00

30th april...

4 am

wake up so damn early in the morning...

well...

had bad dream bout survival models...

it chased me even when i sleep (mayb iT was a cursed subject...huh)...

cant sleep back after that...

so, the thing that i can do( i shud do actuarially)--->study his subject...huhu

so i studied till 8 0'clock...

8am-12pm

went to ptar4...

there are a lot of animals in my stomach...(where did they come from???)

huhu...

i think my otak is tepu already...

but still need to study...

huhuhu...

amad n soe...what r they doin in ptar...

well, this ptar is belong to me...(am i?)

"halim, plz don sorokkan my heels"(massita;2008)

actually im the one who sorokkan his shoes...

hahahaha...

baru puas hati...hihihi

lunch hour...

goin back to farawa's room...

i felt dizzy...not enough tido kn...huhuhu

let me sleep 4 a moment...(moment ke???farawa left me in the room...y dun u wake me up?)

but thanx farawa...so fresh after that...

2-5pm

exam time...

huh...(*.*)

>5pm...

dun want to think bout that paper anymore...

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.....
im not even dare to think what ive answered...

but thanks to halim...

we went to watch "IRONMAN" at aeon bukit tinggi...

best sgt muvie ni!!!

--->pesanan to my frens--->g la tgk citer ni... best gile!!!hihihihi

thats my day...

alhamdulillah it ends with happy ending...

mulakan hari esok dgn senyuman...

lalalala~~~

* MY ENGAGEMENT *

2008-04-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

this is how its began:

6th jan 08

his famili come to my house...
ok...,
i tried to keep calm but still there are a lot of elephants in my stomach...
what should i do?
my parents ordered me to stay in my room ( wow, this is juz like the movie :p )...
ok, i feel so nervous...
my bro keep teasing me...
finally...the end...
my mother showed me the ring that *he* gave me...
of course i love that ring...
he choose it with me...
MY FIRST RING...**

1th feb 08

mid sem holidays ---> starts
feel so nervous...
within 1 week...
i'll be his fiancee...
future wife...
omg...
this is a very big decision that ive made...

7th feb 08

the arrival of a azi, my eldest brother...
im so excited coz his wife was the one who made my special dress...
my engagement dress (is it dress?)...
wow...
juz nice...
i love it...

8th feb 08

tomorrow will be the day...
almost 80% is completed...
everybody were working hard for tomorrow...
fortunately ive 3 brothers n 3 sisters...
they help a lot...
i love them so much...

8th feb 08 (nite)

ok...
within few hours...
i'll be the center of attraction...
hohohoho...
how should i act?
smile? is it? what others usually do?
omg...i have no time to reherse what should i do tomorow...
ok...don panic...
i'll be fine...
but, why i cant sleep?

9th feb 08

this is the day...
everyone was so bz...
preparing everything...
im late...
ive done my make up at 1150am...
and the rombongan had arrived...
need to change my cloth...
alhamdulillah...thank Allah...
it is jz on time (not exactly...i changed my cloth n wearing my tudung when the majlis had already started...huhuhu)...
n my frens take pics with me when org2 tua were discussing bout me and *him*... ( thanx to all for comin..muah )

alhamdulillah...
it was over...
ive got another 2 rings...
thanx HALIM KHALID...
may our relation will be happily ever after...
amin...

waah...my own blog... **

2008-04-22T15:42:00.000+08:00

testing 1 2 3...
hello...
mmm...
ok...
no input right now...
dont hv any to say...
tonite mayb...
mmm...

A Doctorate Journey

Ramadhan 1432H

s.e.s.a.t oleh n.a.t.a.s.h.a

bila kami berdua ~ ~ ~

z.u.r.i.a.t

lembut hati + baik hati ???

t.u.t.o.r

Ph.D #1

Welcome to the Year of "Metal Tiger" !!!

"28 DaYs"

my blog

**1st Anniversary**

~~ alhamdulillah ~~

~~NuR KaSiH~~

M.A.S.S.I.T.A love H.A.L.I.M

My SWeeT MemORieS [UiTM - part 1]

L-I-F-E

P.E.L.A.N.G.I Y.A.N.G I.N.D.A.H

"MY WEDDING"

BSc.(Hons.)(Actuarial Science)

m.y l.i.f.e

IM BACK !!!!

IM GETTING MARRIED....

ENGLISH MID TERM TEST

hari-hari ku....

.Z.I.R.C.O.N.

BLoG DA BERKULAT...huhuhu

huhuhu...

**MISS HIM**

**FSTEP INDUCTION DAY**

**DRAMA QUEEN**

* ICE CREAM PERSONALITY??? *

**KUNGFU PANDA**

**AT LAST**

**MY 1st HOUSE**

**MY 1st JOB**

PREPARATION FOR NEXT STAGE

B.L.E.A.C.H

**KASEH SAYANG**

ACTUARIAL PRACTICE II

GENERAL INSURANCE II

SURVIVAL MODELS

* MY ENGAGEMENT *

waah...my own blog... **

1st Anniversary

alhamdulillah

NuR KaSiH

MISS HIM

FSTEP INDUCTION DAY

DRAMA QUEEN

KUNGFU PANDA

AT LAST

MY 1st HOUSE

MY 1st JOB

KASEH SAYANG